I have been posting alot lately so thanks for reading this. You guys always give me the best advice and make me feel like I'm not alone.
I have been pretty depressed the past few days and am still waiting to hear back from my pdoc. Meanwhile, my parents have been out of town so my younger sister has been in charge of their house and taking care of my cat. I live with my boyfriend and we can't have animals in our apartment complex. I go home everyday to check on him. Last night I couldn't make it home, I was there in the afternoon but had to leave around 3. I politely asked my sister to make sure he had food and water last night and today and she told me she did. When I arrived home this afternoon my cat, who's 15 with some health problems, was sitting at the door crying. She didn't feed him or give him any water.
I texted her to ask why she hadn't just asked me to come home last night of she was incapable of feeding the cat and she went crazy. She told me I was psycho, in need of help, bipolar and annoying. She also said that she wishes she could really tell me the truth about
how she feels about
me but she dosent think I can handle it. She also told me she no longer wishes to speak to me because she cannot deal with my mood swings and me being a psycho.
I'm basically in tears because sometimes I do feel like I'm bipolar when my depression takes over. I'm really uncomfortable going to the house now because it's kind of like her territory since I moved out. My sister and I have never been friends. She's a cheerleader with a lot of friends, I'm introverted and can count all of my friends on one hand. I just feel like she's so much better than me and now that she's making all these comments it's just magnifying the situation. I really try not to compair myself to others but it hard because we came from the same parents and she seems to have no problems.
I really don't know what to do and Im feeling really sad. Thanks again for reading this.
Post Edited (IWantToSmileAgain) : 6/1/2011 2:59:39 PM (GMT-6)