It's funny you should say that, I do tend to get depressed when I'm not doing anything. Maybe I'll try taking walks more often.
It's actually more of a work placement than a job per-say- I'm a journalism student, and I'll be working in the newsroom of a local radio station. I'm hoping that will make me happy enough to get through the day, because I love working there, but I'm also worried that I'll turn up depressed or that I'll come home and be depressed, tell my boyfriend about it, and then he'll crack.
I think I actually get more downtime than other students because I don't get too much work, though, but maybe I've been too quick to dismiss my feelings in the past... I'm willing to admit it's not be a good few year for me - my favourite grandad died 2 years ago, which was a very traumatic experience for me and still upsets me on occasion now, my grandma in September this year, and the family dog which has been around for 14 years (since I was 5 or 6) died 2 weeks ago. Maybe I'm not good at grieving - I spent a day crying over the dog, despite me being very close to it, probably 2 days for my grandma, and probably not long enough for my grandad seeing as I still get tearful when I think about his death. Could that be a partial cause, despite the first family death being 2 years ago?
For some reason, I find myself dependent on other people. I get depressed when I don't have people around, especially if I know they're not in town. For example, my boyfriend has been at his parents since Saturday and I started getting horribly depressed today (hence why I'm posting here). Is that normal for depression, or is it just an effect of how I live right now? I hate being dependent on other people, it's not something I've been like in the past.