I miss being able to enjoy rainy days curled up with a good book, or cuddled up on the sofa, watching an old movie with my honey...heck even just climbing back in bed for a long nap.
I really miss the fun of watching really violent thunderstorms, with the wild flashes of lightning and roaring claps of thunder, counting the seconds between to figure out how far away the strikes were. I love watching the crazy clouds rolling through, and seeing the hail stones bounce off the ground like popcorn.
These days, the storm fronts moving in and back out just act as a trigger for my migraine headaches. Sometimes my abortive medication works and sometimes it doesn't, and I just never know whether the awful pain is going to come with the storm front or not. What's really hard is when there are multiple fronts rolling through, one after another, so that the weather changes six or eight times during a single day. Sometimes I think the stress of not knowing gets to me, and I dread seeing a weekly weather forecast that includes lots of changes. It's almost like predicting the future..."looks like I'll probably get a migraine on Thursday", provided my migraine meds don't work. I really hate it because it starts to sound like I'm planning "an episode", and I don't want anybody to remotely think there is any type of deliberate "scheduling" going on.
Migraines are an invisible malady, and I have to maintain my integrity with my physicians, since there's no way to show them or demonstrate that my migraines exist. There are so many people that are pure "drug seekers" these days, I have to be so careful not to get unfairly labeled. Any slight appearance of impropriety and I could have any and all pain medication prescriptions cancelled, including what I need for my bad back and knees. Heck, I don't even take pain meds for my migraines, unless I my abortive medication fails and I have to get an injection from my doctor. The red tape that I have to deal with regarding pain medication is enough in itself to give me a freaking headache. I need to stop blabbing about this as I can feel a storm front moving in on me as I type. Everybody wish me luck and no migraine