It truly sounds like you are getting taken advantage of. What is stopping you from going out on your own, or asking him to leave? Do you go to any counseling for this situation? It would help you get stronger so that you aren't taken advantage of. It sounds like he is verbally abusive to you when he drinks. You don't deserve that. He should have a job too. Learn to speak up for yourself when things aren't fair. And learn to love yourself. You don't deserve to be treated this way. You are much better than that. Know that you will have respect and kindness here. I am glad that you vented and I hope it made you feel better. You are a good person and you will find support here.
Take care, keep posting.
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