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Date Joined Jun 2011
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   Posted 6/7/2011 8:33 PM (GMT -6)   
The only time i am happy is when i'm day dreaming about a different life. I try to stay in my own world but i think that is making my depression worse sad . I write a lot i think it is bad for me to keep creating these alternative worlds but i would rather write than live in my world. If i'm not writing i'm listening to music i sleep all day and stay up all night i cant sleep once i'm up. My mom had heart surgery two years ago and she had a stroke and it paralyzed her. She has been in the hospital off and on since. She is in the hospital right now and i'm staying with her. My dad went to jail for drugs now i dont have anyone to help i'm alone. I'm angry that he left me alone i'm angry that i have to take care of my mom and have a job and pay bills at 17 mad   I want a job i want to take care of myself but i want help getting there. My parents are supposed to be there for me it's not supposed to be the other way around  cry  . I want to be normal and plan for college and move out on my own. I got thrown out in the world and i dont know what i'm doing or where were going when she gets realeased from the hospital. We were moving now. I cant move i dont have any money a car or anything. I have to manage having a job getting a car taking care of my dogs and horses. taking care of my mom and finding smowhere to live. I want to go to school for media arts. How am i going to be able to do anything for myself? My mom crys all the time. I cant do anything for her i cant even help myself let alone someone else. I hate feeling sorry for myself but i am stressed and lost eyes .

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Date Joined Jun 2011
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   Posted 6/7/2011 9:58 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm sincerely sorry for what you're going through. You certainly are having a rough time of it, it's obviously not fair that you should have to go through all of that. I'm 17 too and I can't imagine being under all the pressure you're under. I hope you can find a way to go after your dream of pursuing media arts. I wish I knew what I wanted to do with that much clarity. Just remember that you will never be able to help your mom until you take time out to help yourself. Best of luck to you.

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   Posted 6/8/2011 6:37 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi 21guns,

Welcome to the forum. I am so sorrry for your situation. But know that as long as you are trying, thjings will get better. You will persue your media arts. It might take a little longer to get started, but you will do it. Do be there for your mom if you can handle it. She didn't ask for this. But she understnands I am sure that you need your oiwn life, hopefully there will be a way for you to persue your dreams. Take care, you are a good son.

Hugs, Karen
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