It truly sounds like you have depression. Have any of the doctors said anything like putting you on medication or mentioned counseling? Counselling can really help, and with that you might not need meds. Are you letting the doctors know how actually bad you feel? I am surprised thaty haven't tried something to help you.
When we are depressed, we don't think very much of ourselves. Don't think that you aren't good enough or that your husband deserves better, because that isn't true. You sound like a wonderful person and I know that your husband loves you very much, but he probably doesn't understand what you are going through.
For my depression, I take medications that I get from my psychiatrist. And I go to counseling to a psychologist. I also try to walk a lot. As it clears my head and is good exercise. That helps me too. I also take vitamin D3 because that helps me to feel better too. Right now my depression is in remission due to the antidepressants. I also take anti anxiety meds and a mood stabilizer. But that doesn't mean that you will need as much medication as I do. You may only need one pill if you need medication at all.
I hope that you are proactive about this. Coming here was a good step in the right direction. I am glad that you have joined us. Know that here you will get support and advice from other members. And it is nice just to know that you aren't alone in your struggles. That always helps.
Do keep posting and know that we all care.
I hope that you feel better soon.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies