Made a run for the border

I know that it is difficult to face the future and set "goals". I know that the thing I finally realized that I wanted to be happy with myself and that the happiness came from inside of me not from what I could buy or how I was feeling with this DD. Don't know if this makes sense to you, not sure if it does to me. Good luck in finding yourself and the direction you want in life.

hey meli,

I have a few hobby suggestions . have you ever tried yoga? or aerobics or dancing leasons? any of the these three might be very intresting to try i think. specially yoga i heard yoga is picking up in the US and there is many instructors. there is nothing like physical exsersive then a hot bath or sawna it is so relaxing for the mind.

if that does not work , if your found of reading books that's also a very postive thing to do. as long as you find a book that intrests you. i know that many people who hate reading books if they find a certain book they are intrested in they might spend a lot of time reading it. for me i hate reading books, but i like chineeze histroy for some reason and i found a very intresting book about romance of the three kingdoms. it is only a novel not a true story but it is very well writen and translated to english i found it captivating. so search for the type of book that you might like to read i know it is not eazy but be sure there is a book out there for you but you have to discover it!

you say you have bad karma or something like that. well i feel the same about myself and i feel there is not much i can do about my karma but i certainly don't duel too much about it , i try to keep a positive image when i am communicating with friends or family i try to be myself and focus on that and that makes me feel happy and proud of myself. if you feel ok about your self then people who surround you will also feel comfortable with you because it is how nature works, so you have to work on the inside and on your self it takes time and don't give up ok?

Visiting your mum is a cool thing, and i hope you have a fun and safe journey, may god be with you. it is mothers day for us on 21st of marsh ( i think for you it is 2nd sunday of may hehe ) be good to your mumy and remember how she raise you from a baby , and work so hard for you and that you have to do the same for your kid one day.

I suggest you find a husbend and look for someone who really respect a marage. since you want to grow old with him get a spirtual person, whos positive don't go for a heavy metal or gothic guy, or someone who don't beleave in good because you seem to be a person who beleave in god and you should look for someone who is like you , and that will help your marrage work better. you are a sensative person and you need to have security and kids , and mother responsibilaties that is all natural.

have a good one!