I know that it is difficult to face the future and set "goals". I know that the thing I finally realized that I wanted to be happy with myself and that the happiness came from inside of me not from what I could buy or how I was feeling with this DD. Don't know if this makes sense to you, not sure if it does to me. Good luck in finding yourself and the direction you want in life.
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.