havent posted in a wee while . been crap . asking myself why i am alive ?
i hate all this pain, hurt and sadness that i am feeling . im always crying and i feel like an idiot . no one seems to understand all the pain im going through and im slipping away . my friends are just telling me to keep holding onto hope and that things will get better , so far , only got worse . i have nothing to hold onto . im falling into a deep hole and i feel like giving up . i dont want to die , i want all this pain to end . i hate the life that i have . and ive just found out that my nanas breast cancer has probably gone to her bones and if it has she wont have many more years to live , which sux . i wish i would go to sleep and never wake up . if only it were that easy . feeling so down and low . dont wanna do anything anymore . just wanna lock myself in a room and cry . i just wish i was happy , like truely happy . im falling slowly and no one is there to catch me .
im going on too much now .. im gonna stop . sorry . just wanna be heard , understood ....