the doc said in her 12yrs of seeing depressed patients she has never seen anyone get the feelings of suicide or hurting others. I have always had something wrong with meds tho, i have never been able to take Birth control cuz im either allergic or it doesnt work (i got pregnant while on the depo-shot). Im trying to be the best mom and person i can be but i dont know what to do anymore.
If this doc hasn't seen suicidality or aggressiveness in anyone taking SSRI's she may not be a doctor any of her patients can confide in. And what would it matter if you were the very first anyway??? She is meant to treat what she sees - not compare you to others!
I also fell pregnant on the depo-shot and really struggled with being a mum. I also have had heaps of sensitivity to a wide range of medications. SSRI's work a treat for many people but can be very dangerous for people with complex issues or metabolisms. They sent me over the edge too. Yes, parenting a 2 year old is very demanding... You do need to get a safety plan in place that you know you will follow, when the anger gets too intense. This isn't a cop out, it is about
facing reality and making sure that you ensure your and your son's safety. I did go to the ER one night and they were brilliant... they took him to another area in the hospital where I couldn't hear him screaming and although I didn't manage to sleep I did get some rest. The nurse explained to me she had a supportive husband and family, with no mental illness and she at times had felt so exasperated that she felt like hurting her kids. I didn't get judged at all. I certainly didn't get locked up. I got supported, my experience normalised and got some time out. My son is now 14, deep voice, hairy legs and towers over me. You would have heard it a million times, but it DOES get easier... just make safety plans for this tough time. The storm will pass. Hugs, LW
PS. Agomelatine and Seroquel has worked a treat for me. While I am bipolar I also have PTSD - and so I need antidepressant to treat the PTSD. Efexor XR is also good for people who have bad reactions to SSRI's... I can metabolise Tegretol in minimal amounts. I'm about
21 years ahead of you in running the med gauntlet and they are the only meds I have trialled not reacted to. Everyone is so very different. I have brain sensitivity as well as liver metabolism issues. (my 3a4 pathway is stuffed). I'm only throwing this stuff at you IF you happen to hit a brick wall in your progress. Sensitivity and toxicity issues are not frequent and not well dealt with on the whole. Very Best in finding your most effective route to wellness. Big hugs.
Post Edited (living well) : 6/26/2011 10:39:15 PM (GMT-6)