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Corndawgz
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   Posted 6/27/2011 3:38 AM (GMT -6)   
I am 20 years old.....and ive got a few issues that im not sure what to do about. I am extremely empathetic and sympathetic towards others and give everything I have every chance I get......but I hate myself and dont even like looking in the mirror. I have horrible social anxiety to the point where I feel embarrased to even order food at a resturaunt. I've been taking care of my siblings since I was 10....so, I never really got to be a kid. I've wanted to  since about age 13...but havent had enough balls to actually do it until now. I am isolated from society......I live alone, eat alone, sleep alone, and I basically live alone.......I try my hardest to socialize......but modern society seems to perfer cell phones to actual human contact face to face. I have absolutely no ambition for a career.......mostly because I dont believe in getting a job, buying a house.....working to pay it off till you are 70+ years old and then retiring just in time to die. I came home about 1 month ago to find my fiance gone......2 days later I get a text from her saying that she left me for some guy that she met on the internet....and that she was already having sex with him. My depression skyrocketed after that........and now its worse than ever.....I hate myself.....I hate my life.....and I hate MOST people......I have no faith left in people or life itself.......will someone PLEASE give me a reason to keep on living? Will someone please help me? This is my last attempt to find help cry

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 6/27/2011 7:54:17 AM (GMT-6)


theHTreturns...
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   Posted 6/27/2011 4:15 AM (GMT -6)   
1. suicide aint the answer. unfortanetly i have been down that road. it's nasty
2. you are a precious human being of this earth with gifts and talents that are unique to only you.
3. help is out there. and you are reaching out.
4. because i (we) care. please keep fighting.
5. there are treatments amd tools to help you.

6. i send heaps of healing compassion to you. jamie.
7. you have been brave in posting, keep being brave and sek assistance.
SCHIZO-AFFECTIVE DISORDER, EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER, BORDERLINE TYPE -AXIS 2 , RAPID CYCLING BI-POLAR DISORDER

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

Precious Gem
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Date Joined Oct 2008
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   Posted 6/27/2011 6:29 AM (GMT -6)   
So you feel like you need to take a different path in life other than the traditional "American Dream"? To that I say cool-e-o! Not wanting to fit the mold and act like everyone else is OK. You can be, you are, a unique individual, you are young and need to find a life that works for you, thus I bet anxiety/depression will fade. The girlfriend, well, if she did you like that you are probably better off without her. Try and find something that interest you, in pursuing it you will likely find "like minded" people that you feel comfortable interacting with. Not all of us spend every waking moment texting, watching TV or crusing facebook. If you ever have the chance to read a book called "Living the Good Life" by Scott and Helen Nearing, please do so. It will show you that you can live a simpler, saner life, your way.

Good luck, take a deep breath and know that all that happens postive/negative is pointing you in another direction.

Gem

getting by
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   Posted 6/27/2011 8:57 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi there,

Welcome to the forum. There are so many reasons to live. You will find them. I know that your past wasn't the greatest, but none of ours was. Take comfort in the friends that you are making here. These are good people.

I hope that you feel better soon. I had to edit your post as we aren't allowed to discuss suicide here.

I hope that things get better for you. Think of this as the beginning of your healing journey. You will feel better.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


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