It sounds like you could use some counseling to get some direction in your life. Holding on to dreams gets us nowhere in this situation. Are you afraid to tell him how you feel now? What is the worst thing that could happen? You really need to find yourself and know that you don't need anybody to make you a whole person. Then you can deal with the relationship aspect of it when it is time. But first work on you. It sounds like you are lacking a little in the self esteem department. Counseling works for that. And direction too. I highly recommend it.
Know that there will be many guys in your life. But if you really want this guy, let him know. But if he is blaming you for his problems, don't go for that. He did what he did on his own. Make him own that responsibility. Talk to him.
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