I'm so sorry this happened to you. But it's time to focus on the present, and the things you can contribute to the world today, as well as the things you have every right to enjoy.
If you are still in college, and there is a health center, that would be a place to start looking for help. I'm sure this is an issue they deal with regularly. They may even have a group of other students who are going thru the same issues you are.
Hang in there - I promise you, it can and will get better.
Lynnwood, Lupus & Sjogren's ModeratorDIAGNOSING-LUPUS & LUPUS-RESOURCES
"Life is far too important to be taken seriously" - Oscar Wilde