Well, I'm a 53 year old gay male who has suffered from depression & anxiety throughout his life, although only sought treatment the last 10 years. I've been in all those dark places that I am sure most of you have been in at one point or another.. or maybe not. I lost my job about 4 years ago and fell into a very blue funk - Got so bad I had no motivation for living and just getting out of bed was a struggle....Never cried so much in my life for no apparent reason other than a deep sense of sadness that was so ever present. I'm out of that dark place now, but still struggle with shades of grey. During those darker days my GP was trying to bring me back with attempts at switching antidepressants. Was on Paxil for about the first 5 years, then when I lost my job and depression hit, tried several new ones, each having disastrous effects until we landed with Effexor. Actually, it was today's looking up Effexor side effects that led me here.
Anyway, still not working and continue to have a few days a month that are downers - Maybe it's the forever present insomnia and the fact I've gained 60 pounds in the last 10 years that tears me apart... my self esteem sure ain't what it used to be.
Well, I could ramble for hours, but I'll spare you the details. It's good knowing I've found a place to vent if need be... My family, I do love them, but when it comes to them understanding my battle with depression, they sometimes fall short of the mark.... A cold they can comprehend,... in someone's head, not so much.
Make each day count!