New to depression meds (starting Cymbalta) Feeling totally depressed!!!

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NJ girl
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   Posted 7/4/2011 11:40 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Everyone,
I'm new to this site, and new to taking anti depressants also. I just took my 1st (sample from dr.) dose of 30mg of Cymbalta. I hope this worksm and hope I dont have some of the awful side effects I've been reading about. I've done ALOT of research on these meds, and they ALL seem to have some people say positive, others are negative. My dr. initially gave me a rx for Lexapro...which I never filled. I am too scared since everything I read, and anyone I know who has taken this drug has NOT liked it at all and said it made things worse.
I never thought I was someone depressed. I've had a somewhat stressful life overall....married at 18, (still together and I am 33). I love my husband and kids so much. I'm just feeling overwhelmed and "not right" lately. I work a full time stressful job at a large company. It used to be that my husband was the main "bread-winner", now it changed and I actually bring home more. The stress is overwhelming.
Here's the thing...I dont know whats wrong w me!! I had a pain killer "addiction" for about 2 years...taking heavy doses of oxycodone (anywhere from 120mgs to possibly more a day). I came off the pain meds as they were obviously becoming a habit that I couldn't deal w in my life. And the weird part is-no one (not family, not coworkers) would have imagined I was on the oxys!! I never acted like I was "on something" just helped me maintain the energy I needed. After I came off the pain meds, I never felt the same. The w'd symptoms ended w the help of suboxone. But I haven't felt "myself" ever's been about 6 months.
I need to feel better. I feel so tired and worn ALL the time. I don't want to get dressed (besides work because I HAVE to). No activites, parties, events) nothing excites me. I dread everything. I have no libido, I feel generall just "depressed"!! How did I get like this? When I was 22-29 i felt "ALIVE"!! I always considered myself to be somewhat "attractive" meticulous about my clothes, hair, makeup, tanning, I don't want to get dressed! I come home from work- pajamas go on...I look like hell! I feel disgusting (which could be affecting my libido also). I feel scared I will lose my husband if I don't straighten my life out. He also was addicted to pain killers, but has gone off as well. He has continued to take the suboxone-I don't know, maybe that helps him. He's a cop, and he goes to the gym, works, I dont know why he always has energy, and I'm struggling with being alive every day.
Please if anyone has experienced anything like this, or just have an overwhelming feeling of sadness, lost of interest, total lack of energy...PLEASE tell me what has helped you. I want to go down the shore on the weekends w my kids, I want to go tanning, take care of myself, go shopping, have nights out w my husband. I DONT want to be like THIS!!!! I feel like everyone around me is happy, and I am not. What is wrong w me???!!! So sorry for the long post- I suppose I'm venting, because I don't like to tell the Dr. even whats truly going on- I don't like to feel like the "nutcase" and always want to present myself as the "appropriate business woman". Deep down, I am a mess!
Please ANYONE tell me what has worked. My main concern is weight gain....if these meds made me gain weight, I'll be more depressed than ever. It seems Cymbalta & Wellbutrin (from what I've read) have the least side effects of "weight gain"...although for some I'm sure that's not true. Ok...I'm gonna peel myself off my couch now & try to maintain some type of a life. I have a 4th of July BBQ to go to later today, and I'm dreading it more than life itself! Someone please respond if you've ever felt the same- please let me know what has helped you. cry

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   Posted 7/4/2011 12:19 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey NJ Girl, Welcome to Healing Well.

I am sorry you're feeling so down. I think you should really find someone to talk to, a therapist or psychologist, it would be good to get this all off your chest to a person who can give you unbiased advice.

I deal with a lot of similar issues that you describe, I am 32 but I have had this problem for much longer. Probably since my mid20s. I also have Ulcerative Colitis & that's an added problem but really the fatigue and lack of interest is very frustrating to deal with alone. I just started Pristiq and I hope it helps to keep my mind from thinking negative all the time.

I Have heard Wellbutrin is not likely to cause weight gain, I don't know about Cymbalta. I know what you mean about being more depressed if you gain weight. I was on prednisone and I gained a lot of weight. I didn't look like myself. I've always weighed 110-115 and I won't even tell you how bad my weight got but I am finally down to 120 and I am very happy about it but it hasn't made me feel less depressed. I have to say that after everything, health is more important than weight but it doesn't seem that way when you have the excess weight. Try to focus on getting better, if you're feeling good, you will get out and do more and burn more weight. You will get back to the things that you used to enjoy like tanning and you will feel good about yourself.

I give you a lot of credit for facing your problems and working to correct them. That's the biggest step.
Now it is just a matter of finding what works for you. You will be back to yourself in no time.
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   Posted 7/4/2011 12:41 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi there and welcome to the forum.

A lot of times people taking narcotics gain weight because they slow the metabolism down. That is why people get constipated on them. It slows everything down.

A lot of people get energy from narcotics. It takes a long time for the fatigue to go away. Months to a year. But I would suggest walking as much as you can to get your weight down. And watching what you eat. But the exercise will give you energy. I know it sounds crazy, but it is actually true, especially the walking.

I have a friend who went through the same thing as you and she said it took about a year to get feeling normal again. I see this a lot with pain pills, especially if you get the energy with them, once the pills have stopped, you are exhausted. Do walk, drink a lot of water. If you drink soda, stop it and switch to water. You will lose a lot of weight. That is what I did. And it worked. I have lost over 20 pounds in three months. I know it doesn't sound like a lot, but it is a gradual process.

I too believe that Wellbutrin is the best anti depressant if you don't want to gain weight. I have heard both good and bad about cymbalta. But I have heard it is a hard drug to get off of.

I wish you all the best with everything. Keep posting.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 7/4/2011 12:45 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi, NJ Girl,

Welcome to the Depression Forum. You might find the folks here helpful and certainly compassionate regarding what's happening to you.

I would start, frankly, with a thorough physical examination by my doctor. What you describe can be one of any number of conditions. I might even guess (and we aren't doctors here, so we can't say what the condition is or what might be the best medication to take) that you should have some thyroid analysis work done. Hypothyroidism can
cause identical symptoms to those you are experiencing.

A helpful hint might be to ask yourself if anyone in your family has had thyroiditis during his/her lifetime. Like so many illnesses it can be inherited, so it's virtually impossible for us to know what's happening.

You certainly could be suffering from depression at age 33 (or at any age, for that matter), but you need a professional diagnosis first. Why not try to talk to your doctor and get the work done to eliminate any number of things that could be wrong. You could even be low on
red blood cell count which can cause fatigue. Even allergies affect people as you are describing.

One thing is for sure: you need medical help to get to the root of the problem. Then, if it turns out to be simple depression, you might wish to discuss your triggers with a specialist in psychiatry. These people can identify a problem very quickly and prescribe an appropriate medication for you to take to alleviate the problem.

Try to make yourself get to a doctor and locate the problem, then get on the appropriate medication. It will resolve itself in just weeks once you do that. Keep posting if you wish, and we'll try to offer additional suggestions to help you recover your energy and positive view of life.

If you drink alcohol or use caffeine in any form, stop using them, please. Both caffeine and alcohol make depression worse.

Take care.

It's Genetic

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   Posted 7/4/2011 1:17 PM (GMT -6)   
You might want to get your vitamin D levels checked too. If they are down, it makes you feel tired.

Hugs, Karen
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