Well, not sure how they go about things there, maybe someone else in the Forum lives there and can offer suggestions on the health care system???
Please let me urge you to look for help outside for yourself.
Depression is to the mind, what a serious disease is to the body and, we seek medical help for that.
I know that it seems an effort to make that first push to find a doctor/therapist right now but, you will discorver after a bit of treatment that it is worth it.
We don't have the tools, on our own, to fight this and the therapists can give you good ideas and tools to help you cope with and change your thought processes.
You're worth it. No one should or needs to live with depression. I would simply go to the family member you feel safesty with and tell them you need their help to find a therapist and you need it now.. will they do it for you as you are not able to do it for yourself. Explain to them it is as if it is a disease and you need someone to take you to the doctor. This is no different.
Maybe seek a different set of doctors, as they need to be a bit more attentive to your needs.
Your family loves you and, speaking as a mom, your child is not bugging you when they ask for help. Moms want the best for their daughters, in everything.
So please, talk with a close family memeber, give them information that will help them help you. You don't have to live like this and there are better days waiting for you to enjoy.
Good luck and let us know how you are doing.