I am not going to call you worthless either because you are not. Many years ago when I was 18, I met a boy pretty much like all the boys I liked in my life until I went into therapy. I always picked the emotionally unavailable guy, the guy that would treat me like next to nothing. How could he be so cold? I thought I needed them, mostly because I thought they were the only kind of man that would love me.
I found out something very different. Through journaling, I realized that I have a lot to offer and when the "good" guy comes along, I am worthy. I don't pick men that I need anymore, I pick the ones I want. I also found that I am not good at marriage, but I can be a loyal, loving friend,
Look inside yourself, there is a lot to love.