hello everyone, I know ive been away from the computer for awhile, just trying to focus on work and figuring stuff out for myself. Ive really been putting it on him about
getting help and he just laughs it off and i have threatened to leave several times because of his addiction. All he wants to do is brag about
how much he drank and then whenever he gets a hangover he takes the pain out on me and complaines that he cant drink because hes too hung over... ugh I know that I love him to death but I do understand where all of you are coming from, trust me ive been trying to find a way to escape but its truely hard with my job that hardly pays me well and its really hard for me to save up. He has been helping me out by paying my part of the bills because he knows how hard it is for me. Im searching for another job and once i get a better one I am most certainly moving out.... we havent been fighting for the last few days and when hes like this it really makes me feel so guilty for having these thoughts of leaving him all alone. Hes told me that if i ever leave him that he would kill himself and that hes only living because im in his life.
We are supposed to go on vacation in two weeks so im hoping things go better and that he doesnt have allot of time to drink. I hope everything goes well during that time.
wish me luck :)