Hello, I am Serenitee, thought I would introduce myself. I really connected with your post, so thank you for sharing something so personal. I am so sorry you are struggling with everything right now. I'm sure it is not easy holding so much inside and not being able to let it all out.
I've been married 23 years now and we have 7-beautiful kids, and 3-grand kids. I have not worked since we got married, so I don't have any income on my own. My husband pays all the bills and is not good with money. Last year when we had been married 22 years a lot of things happened. I have always felt in my gut that he was not faithful to me during different times thru-out our marriage, but he would always deny. He would turn it around on me like I was just basically losing my marbles creating something out of nothing. I had never been unfaithful in anyway at all, never even wanting another man.
I ended up in the Psych Ward for 2 weeks in September 2010, then husband kicked me out, I was homeless for 3 months, no money, no transportation...I left with my car but he stole it in the middle of the night. Then threats by him and I went into hiding. That is it kind of in a nutshell. I had met a man and we were together for the 3 months. It was the first time in so many years that someone really understood me and gave me compliments and support. My husband ended up finding me after the 3 months and begged for me to come home. I told him unless he came clean with all the stuff I thought he had done over the years, I wouldn't come home until he talked. Within minutes he was admitting being unfaithful just months after we were married.
I'm sending you warm wishes for everything to work out for you. Your a strong woman and you will overcome this.
Sorry I was rambling on about me...Would love to chat sometime, my email address is on my profile so if you click on my name "serenitee" it will take you to it. I just didn't want to keep boring you with my stuff.
Look forward to hearing from you...
Your Healingwell Friend,