I agree with Karen and have the same questions. But no matter what the circumstances are, you can build the life you want and fill it with people that are capable of understanding you and loving you for who you are. I am 59 years old and have lived with some serious issues, but one thing is always clear...time changes everything. People reinvent themselves all the time. What is your passion?
Please slow down and give this a lot of thought. Try to think of all your options and see what fits for you. I got the best advice from strangers. I have never been able to rely on my family, I am a foster child, so I had to pick the family I could count on from my friends and they give me a lot of love.
Slow down and think of yourself, not what you want from others. You have control of your life.
Take care of yourself,