I wanted to welcome you to The Healingwell Site. This is an amazing forum and community. Everyone truly offers support, caring, listening and advice when you want it. I'm sorry that you are struggling with some stuff, but I can empathize with you.
Are you seeing a Therapist or Psychiatrist? Or any professional in this field? Do you have any support from family or any friends at all?
Wishing only the best for you.
Your Healingwell Friend,
Bipolar 2, Borderline, Manic-Depressive, Anxiety/Panic Disorder, Ptsd...I was diagnosed this year. I see my psychiatrist weekly.