Thanks for the responses...I am feeling better today. As for the suggestion about
councling and medication, I am on prozac and have been since I was a kid. They have tried other meds with me and prozac seems to work the best without the side effects. One of the other meds that was tried actually causes a permaneant tremor in my left hand. I have done the therapy thing most of my life, the hospital thing too many times to count, and even partial hospitalization. If things get really bad I know I have those options. although I get suicidal, I promised my daughter I was gonna stick around and get through this the hard way. Anyway, thanks again.
ps..Cassandra...I remember you from when I was a member before.