Welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum. I had to edit your post because we aren't suppose to discuss suicide on this forum. But I want you to know we are going to help you as much as we can. I am going to post some sites that you can go to if you ever feel the need.
National Suicide Hotline
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.
Helpful Web Sites:
Suicide Hotlines (listed by state)
Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)
I am guessing that your last therapist thought that it would benefit you to discuss your past. And I take it that you didn't feel that was going to help you. Maybe you need another approach. A different therapist to help you. Therapy kind of keeps us together. It gives us a safe person to talk to and something to grasp and hang on to when we are feeling like we are falling. It is so important that you have that person to talk to. You deserve that much. So do think about it and see what you decide. I think it really would help you.
Are you feeling that the stress of the baby is too much for you? If you are you should talk to your boyfriend about getting some day care to give yourself a break.
I can't remember if you said whether you are seeing a psychiatrist or not. I see one along with a psychologist too. You may want to have him go over your meds and let him know how you are feeling, as some meds can make us feel the way that you do. If they aren't the right ones for us.
there are a couple more sites that might help you:
I don't know if these are going to help you or not, but they might.
I hope that you feel better soon. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. There is usually somebody on occasionally, been kind of slow lately, but you will get responses to your posts.
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Post Edited (getting by) : 7/22/2011 6:16:42 PM (GMT-6)