Hello Allie ......
Thanks for writing so soon. I'de like to respond to your comments and questions. I have little experience in anti-depressants with Lexapro as the only one ever taken - so I can't comment much on the meds of that type.
My first experience with a psychologist was a very good one - and it was a lasting experience. It was at time of personal family loss, and ramifications of a divorce and a bad business year. It uncovered some weaknesses of mine - and the psychologist led me in some positive directions. Hidden guilt - not mine but forced upon me by a parent over her lifetime was addressed.
I have to admit my second experience with a psychologist was not very good. It was during a relationship - that failed anyway. And the most recent is an occassional meeting with a psychologist who specializes with terminal illnesses. He's good, but I think I have most of my ducks in a row - so i don't need to see him that often.
So ...... your belief is that a psychologist is not that helpful in the long run. Maybe ...... just maybe ...... it was either the wrong psychologist or the wrong timing. I have a personal thing against psychiatrists (right or wrong ... I still have it). I happen to view them as pill-popper prescribers - and that's only because of one bad experience thru a relationship partner. But ... we are often a summary of our experiences!
I was a borderline agnostic for a long time. I'm not any longer. There is a support group I recently starting going to - a small group for cancer patients - regarding spirituality. I've just been to two of them so far, but after the first meeting ... there were four of us who stayed about 45-minutes after the group meeting to discuss spirituality .... and one of the four is a proclaimed athiest. It was surprising how much we had in common when viewed in the area of spirituality - or oneness with nature.
So ..... we don't always have to be judgemental or be the recipient of being judged when talking about religion.
I need to apologize now .... for not understanding the apparent frustration you do have regarding your feelings about England. I am ignorant of the immigeration policies you've referred to - but, since I am an American, we do have some very upsetting political and financial policies of our own.
I'm in the heart of the frozen midwest myself - or the Chicago area, and we're having a worse than normal January. By the way .... several of those who frequently write on the Depression Forum are either from England or Canada .... I believe a few from Europe and at least one from Australia. We cover a pretty wide area.
Incidentaly ...... two of my best friends were a Norweigan Elkhound named Bear - who I lost April 4, 2012 .... and is a Samoyed named Gizmo who helps keep me sane ....... usually!
Peace and wellness
Rob & Gizmo