I want to welcome you to the HealingWell Depression forum.
I need to ask, what is your boyfriend in jail for? You said it would help the two of you, but there is a reason that he is in jail and that is important to know for me. He must of done something against the law to get there.
You shouldn't have to live under such circumstances. Your mother should be takiing care of you kids instead of spending the money on beer and cigarettes. And she has no right to hit you and kick you. If I were you, I would call "child protective services" and get an investigation going. At least then you and your siblings would have a good place to live. You might get split up though, I am not sure. But they try to keep the children together.
I am sorry for what you are going through. It feels bad to feel unloved. I hope that things get better for you. And know that you are not ugly. None of us are. Do you go to any counseling? I ask that because it is so important to have somebody to talk to. A counselor would help you with your living situation too.
Keep posting and know that we all care about you.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies