Ni Please get ahold of somebody now.
Here are some resources for you:
National Suicide Hotline
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.
Helpful Web Sites:
Suicide Hotlines (listed by state)
Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)
We aren't allowed to discuss suicide on this forum, but I hope that you call this number or go to one of those sites. If you have a crisis hotline in your area, get that. Or go to the hospital. Call somebody now.
I am thinking of you,
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies