The one thing I want to know is if you are seeing a counselor at the time? I am so happy that you are going to go to anger management. I think that will help you. It does sound like you have a lot of stuffed up feelings that need to come out. But we want to do that in a constructive way. Not by hurting yourself or breaking things. I always broke something I really liked, then I would cry about it. It is hard, isn't it? I am sorry that your dad left. Do you still have contact with him? I sure do hope so. It sounds like maybe you two were close. Keep that closeness. Keep in touch with him. Your relationship doesn't have to fold because he left.
Do keep posting and let us know how you are doing. I hope that you feel better soon.
Here is a site that might help you some.
I dont' know a lot about it, but I hear it helps.
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