Emotionally I am soooo done! Today, well I guess yesterday really since its 1:35 now.. anyways Its been a rough day! Ive been having trouble with my car lately. I was supposed to takee it in today to get looked at and they were having power shortages so said bring it back in the morning. It was all fine with me! Went home everything was ok.. I went back out this evening to go babysit and ended upgetting stranded. It was about 9pm so medicine was kinda wearing off & I hadnt taken my next dose yet.. I first got out & looked at the struts & wheel to see if I could see if anything broke or messed up further.. Couldnt really see anything other than what I already knew was wrong before hand. I callled my friend to get a ride & tow truck company to tow.. I then called my mom to tell her that I did not like HER car (lol it was hers at this time cuz it was not being nice to me! lol) I tried to avoid crying but it didnt help. I cried for about 15 minutes while talking with her. I finally broke down and asked her to talk to my aunts and grandma and tell them that I really need help to get a new vehicle and that I cant do it alone right now.
I finally calmed down and was able to get off the phone & finish getting the stuff I needed out of the car put into my bag.. Emotions were sooo rapid cyclingg though! It seemed like it went so quick from the tears to being ok for a few minutes to completely pissed off, kicking & hitting the car back to tears and then to ok when the tow truck guy & my friend showed up.
I hate asking for help so I was feeling really low that I had to call my friend.. She took me over to my other friends that I was headed to to babysit which was across town (made me feel bad to interrupt her evenign but at least did give her $$ for gas) I ended up snuggling up with the baby (3 months old) and rocking him to put him to sleep.. I think it did more for me than it did him lol
Totally frustrated still because I know Im not going to have enough money to fix my car and cant get alone for a new one. Took meds about 10 but here it is almost 2 and still wide awake. (I know doesnt help being in frnot of the computer lol)
That is my venting for tonight thoughh... lol mentally exhausted!!!!!!!