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stillme
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   Posted 8/6/2011 10:29 PM (GMT -6)   
Finally have a chance to sit down for a minute at the computer. I have been using my cell to read the posts. It gets a little tedious trying to type a long message though. I responded to another post that depicts me perfectly. At first I was sad all day. Crying(sobbing) almost every 10 to 15 minutes it seemed. I tried to find a psychiatrist but no one has any openings until September. I really don't think I can wait that long. Then about 3 days ago, as soon as I would open my eyes I would start crying. Getting up is so hard. Then I experience the intermittent crying throughout the day and another total breakdown at night. I called the crisis center. The lady was nice and referred me to a center that she said is in my area. She said it was supposed to be a place that I could go. It wasn't however, just a man that talked to me. Both of them were helpful. Both of them expressed worry. By the time I talked to them I was completely desperate. I called doctors and centers and no one can see me. Either booked or for inpatients only. So of course that just puts me down even further. I feel like no body wants to help me. Yesterday after I had heard no so many times, I broke down with the receptionist on the phone. She was nice and called to get me some more numbers to call. I finally asked one of the centers what do you do if a person can't wait a whole month to be seen. She said go to the emergency room. I really wanted to go but I had so much to do. I read someones post somewhere that said the hospital stay was good. Then the response here said maybe a hospital visit is in order. The hardest think is trying to appear like everything is ok. I had to help with a party for my niece and tomorrow I am supposed to take my son to the beach for a few days. All I want to do is lay down and cry. Or sleep. I have been taking nortriptyline which was prescribed for my headaches and sleeplessness. The doctor said I can take up to 5 at a time so I do that. They do make me sleepy, but the grief is right there in the morning. It settles down a little through the day as I mentioned I just cry off and on, but by late evening, I'm down and out again. I know I need someone to help me. Which is why I started to search for online groups. Something has to help me while I wait until the middle of September for an appointment. I went ahead and made one. I hope I can make it. Maybe when we return from the beach, I can go to the hospital. I didn't know getting help was this difficult. cry

stillme
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   Posted 8/7/2011 9:10 AM (GMT -6)   
This is the first time that  I have felt like this so no, I haven't been putting it off for a long time.  However, I am a procrastinator.  I have been trying to go on with the things of life as if everything is normal.  Nothing is normal for me though.
 
As for the crisis line.  I thought I said they both were helpful.  I knew they were just really there to listen.  But the first person I talked to thought the number she gave me for the second person was a place for me to go.  It wasn't but the man was very good.  After talking to both of them I felt better.  Then comes the next day and I have to start all over.
 
I suppose I can try the neurologist that prescribed to nortiptyline.  He can probably suggest something else.  I need something that helps during the day.
 
 

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   Posted 8/7/2011 9:35 AM (GMT -6)   
Here are a couple of online sites that might help you until you see the pdoc.  They are both free and I have heard good things about them.
 
 
 
I sure do hope that this helps until you see a psychiatrist.  Don't give up hope.  Nothing good comes easy.  You are on your way there, you have an appointment.  Do keep it.  It is so important.  And it will be coming up before you know it.  I hope that you can get the help that you need.
 
Keep posting in the meantime.
 
Hugs, Karen
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stillme
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   Posted 8/8/2011 9:38 AM (GMT -6)   
No problem. I might have been unclear. While I was writing I started feeling pretty bad. You are right about fooling myself. But I'm really trying to fool everybody else. I also agree that it does get worse not addressing it.

about the dr, I told him I had been a little sad. I recently experienced tinnitus with moderate hearing loss, coupled with headaches and sleeplessnes. So he said that med should help. What I feel now is the worst feeling I've ever felt.

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   Posted 8/8/2011 11:04 AM (GMT -6)   
What med did he give you? I would let him know what is going on.

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