Welcome to the forum. I googled what you are looking for and this is what I came up with:
It is that easy actually. I hope that you can find some low cost counseling.
I had to edit your post as we aren't allowed to discuss suicide or self harm. I can see that you are truly suffering. I am glad that you are seeking help. Coming here helps too. So don't be afraid to post when you need to. Within the rules.
I hope that you get counseling soon.
Here are a couple sites that are online and free that might help you too.
I hope that this helps.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies