Welcome to the forum x_babe-x, I understand your grief completely and have great compassion for you; I ask you, though, genuinely to try to realize that you are not responsible for a failure in nature. One in every 10 pregnancies ends in miscarriage and it is not the fault of the parents in any way.
I was a distant acquaintance of a lady who gave birth to her little daughter who was beautiful, but the child had no conscious brain; still she continued to mature as an almost angelic figure simply lying on the couch unaware of everything in life. Her mother was desparately trying to insure that she was groomed and dressed in a lovely small print dress for greeting company.
You must try somehow to remember that in all things that we try to endure it is always possible that things could have been worse. I know that it doesn't help your grief now, but as time goes on, your pain will assuage and you will assimilate all of this into your life. Your love will be full again, believe me, and you may go on the next time to have an adorable little one in your arms.
The drive to have a child is innate in most women, so please try again if you wish to have fulfillment in your life. Take this one day at a time until things begin to turn around for you.
My love to you,
Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 8/13/2011 8:06:03 PM (GMT-6)