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   Posted 8/15/2011 2:59 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Guys. I'm sorry, but its time for the violin again. It's been about 3.5 weeks since I came back from vacation. I was feeling pretty low but felt much better when I came back. But it seems that each week since I've come back I've been feeling a little bit lower. And with the last two days.....I'm feeling very, very low. So low, that I haven't been treating myself well (I hope that is okay to say...I"m trying to stay within guidelines).

I'm at a loss. I know why I feel this way but there is nothing I can really do to change things. I'm half torn about asking my therapist (who is a prescribing APRN) to increase my Prozac ...but I'm afraid I'll become immune to it too quickly if I ask her to increase.

I'll be quite frank. I've got a very small checking account and many bills to pay. But honestly, the only thing that makes me feel even slightly better (and I"m not trying to sound like a pampered brat).. is when I have my nails (hand and toes done). It just feels nice and reassuring. It is like a "safe" touch and I'm craving that right now. I just made an appointment to go soon and I feel like I should be guilty. But I won't let myself.

My next appt. with my therapist is not until 8/25. She knows from my last appointment last week that I've been sliding a little backwards. What should I do? I just feel so incredibly sad and hopeless right now.


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   Posted 8/15/2011 3:16 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Cass,

I am glad to hear that you got your nails done. A few weeks back a friend of mine came to visit. She brought me a bottle of perfume and some hand lotion. Now I am doing my own nails and my hands look younger. It helped me to feel good about myself. We need that. So don't feel guilty for any of it.

Cass, feel free to email me if you need to talk about things that we can't discuss here. You do need to get that out. You only have ten days until you see your therapist. But if you feel you need to see them sooner, don't hesitate to make that call.

I know how it is not to have enough money to go around and to have to operate on a tight budget. It is no fun at all. Do you think that social services could help you any with finances? Or do you think that you have it covered? I am sorry that you are in such a tough spot right now. I hope that things get better. Do keep posting, an know that we are here for you.

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   Posted 8/16/2011 7:23 AM (GMT -6)   
Awe Cass, (((((((((HUG))))))))

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   Posted 8/17/2011 1:57 AM (GMT -6)   
sending you my healing thoughts to you cass, jamie.


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   Posted 8/18/2011 7:25 PM (GMT -6)   
Thank you, Karen. I don't feel like writing too much right now, but I will send you an e-mail when I hopefully get over this hump and feel a little better. I appreciate your replies though. Same with you, Jamie and thanks for the hugs Awty.

Actually, I called my therapist this afternoon and left her a message that I have not been doing well. I asked her to call me back because perhaps she might consider increasing one of my meds.

I haven't heard from her tonight, but hopefully she will give me a call tomorrow.


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   Posted 8/18/2011 8:33 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Cass,
I know exactly how you are feeling as I am doing much worse than I was. I can't seem to get out of this feeling of being so alone and not having enough friends to talk to at night. I know you have your daughters and they are company for you. I too have my sons but they are much older and live on their own. I always worry something will happen to me and no one will find me for days. I just saw my therapist two days ago, yet I am feeling so down and alone. I wonder if other single women feel as alone as I do. I often picture others out and about and enjoying themselves and I feel like I am on the outside looking in. I guess I am having a real pity party.
I understand how having your nails makes you feel better and lifts your spirits. I like to get my hair done about every 5 to 6 weeks and that always makes me feel better. I feel like such a complainer when I know there are people without homes and no food. I should be grateful that I have what I do.
A new series of classes and lectures will start at my town center in September so I am going to sign up for things in hopes of meeting some new people and possibly a new friend. I have gone to many classes but not yet made a connection with anyone. But there is always hope. All I really want is to have even one more new friend.
I feel I may have stolen your post, so I apologize, just wanted to let you know you are not alone. I am hoping a more positive attitude will help me to get by.
Cass, I am hoping you will be feeling better soon. I am thinking of you and will look forward to when we can post and tell about how much better we are feeling. Take good care of yourself. Again sorry for infringing on your post.

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   Posted 8/18/2011 9:55 PM (GMT -6)   
Cass, I hope you feel better soon. You too Aurora. It must be in the air because I feel terrible too. I will be glad also, when we can post that this awfulness has passed.

The idea of treating yourself to something nice is good. I haven't felt like much but I went shopping tonight. The sales lady had a $25 off coupon if you spent $75. So I walked all around trying to get the most for my money. I bought several items. When I was on my way home it occured to me that I hadn't had any thoughts that would take me lower and I hadn't even felt that constant pain that stays on me. Of course right after I said, I can't go out buying new stuff every day. Oh well.

Thanks for the idea Cass it helped if only for a moment. Better days for all of us have to be ahead. Or else the bank account will be at $0 because I am going to try that again. LOL

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   Posted 8/22/2011 4:16 PM (GMT -6)   
((((((BIG HUGS)))))))) to you my friend.

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