Please let us know how you are getting on. I can very much understand your feeling with counselling, I too hold the same opinion, some damage just can't be fixed in an hour. (Other's on this site endorse therapy, and I completly understand why, but for me, it doesn't fit)
When I am going through the 'blank stage', I ask myself every hour what I am feeling and why? At first it is really hard to work out the name for the emotion I am feeling, and the why, but it does get easier when you are able to identify and name the emotion.
Because things are mounting up for you in terms of new medical possibilities and your mechanisums for dealing with your emotions, I do urge you to get answers for what's happening medically, and slow down if you can with the angry emotions you are recognising. Anger is a powerful emotion, you can use anger in a positive driving way as well.
I have only read your posts, so don't know what others have said to you, as I have a shocking headache tonight so are limiting what I read and try to make sense of.
BTW, wasn't the snow magic last week, and isn't it a cold morning today, yip, I am in Wgtn too.