Recently i have been avoiding to go to my religious group its just like the youth group in church. i've been worrying that if i went i'll feel that i'm going to be judged by people again and i just avoided it. So my friend asked me why i didn't go i was afraid to tell her the reason and i started to feel really bad.i was feeling guilty that she treats me so nice but yet i can't tell her the reason. i remember i didn't have appetite that day i felt really down like so helpless. For the past few days i still feel happy and joke in <NOBR><a id=FALINK_2_0_1 class=FAAdLink href="#">school</a></NOBR> but when i'm alone i feel like the world's gonna collapse soon and i feel really tired pyhsically like i never sleep before. it's been a month that i feel this way and a few days ago i started to feel numb like i don't have feelings for anything. Today during lesson, when i looked out of the window i suddenly feel the sky is dark and trapped in a cage feeling breathless and uncomfortable . well, i can't explain exactly how it feels but yeah it's awful. so what's wrong with me?
Sorry for the edit, but we aren't suppose to discuss suicide here.
Post Edited (Gabriell3) : 8/22/2011 6:27:43 AM (GMT-6)