Welcome. I too was depressed for years. I have a chronic illness and never wanted to face the emotional realities associated with it and so I ran from all feelings. This only drove me deeper into depression. Admitting that you need help is a great first step. I needed to get professional help to come to terms with the pain and where it was coming from. The root cause is still there, but I am slowling learning the tools necessary to help me through the pain. Good luck and hope you find the friendship and support here that I have.
We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.