I was supposed to start DBT Program back in May but I had to have an ileostomy so I couldn't go then. My Psych Dr. is insisting that I try this program. Anywaz, it was a kind of a distance for me to attend, & I didn't want to start something that I couldn't finish. Then a lot closer to my house is another DBT Program, which is run by the Hospital (where I was Inpatient last year Psych/Suicide Ward...(followed with 6-months Outpatient in a different location. This closer DBT Program has like at least 4-month waiting list. My Psych Dr. was able to get me into their program & will be talking to them tomorrow to set it up.
I have not been able to do any physical activity. On top of that My Depression has been really bad. Isolating again in my room...Which worries me cuz prior to a year ago, I had been in my bedroom + bathroom for 2-and a half years. I don't want to go backwards to then. I have gained a lot of weight this year due to medications, shoulder surgery & ileostomy surgery. I keep telling my Psych Doctor that I'm going to at least walk half a block each day or several times a week. However, I just have not been able to get motivated or energy to do this.
So, Wednesday night my youngest daughter came with me to take my grandson (3-yrs) back to his mom (my daughter). She lives in a Apartment Complex, which happens to have a very nice gym. My youngest & I used the facilities & I went on the Treadmill for the first time in my life (as I have never gone on one before). I walked at a fast speed & even jogged a tiny bit. Then used a stepper type machine with your arms working out back & forth with the stepping. I was sweating so much, but it really felt good & made me kind of proud of myself. I hope I can continue to go at least 3x a week.
Anywaz, thanx for listening to me ramble on. Hugz & smiles to y'all.
Your Healingwell Friend,
Bipolar 2, Borderline, Panic & Anxiety Disorder, Ptsd