Living with Bulimia

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   Posted 8/27/2011 11:00 PM (GMT -6)   
I have been struggling with anorexia/bulimia for at least 5 years now. Right now I am in my first year in college, and I am a pre-professional ballet and modern dancer. I love dance with all my heart and it is my passion and I could not imagine life without it, but its large focus on the body is driving my eating disorder to the extreme. I cannot even eat a small snack without going on a complete binge, for sometimes the rest of the day. I am so depressed that this has caused me to gain weight, yet I am too powerless to stop it in its tracks and resume a healthy lifestyle. At 5'8" I just want to be a healthy 130 pounds (even though I used to be 115), but now I am 150 pounds. I cannot stop this cycle of abuse and I want to return to my old self and love my body and be thankful for what I have, but this addiction is taking over my life and my happiness during a once in a life time experience: the college life. Please help me....anyone. How do I stop the cycle, drop to a healthy weight, and love myself again?? This is so out of hand. Help. cry

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   Posted 8/27/2011 11:12 PM (GMT -6)   
I really suggest you seek both professional treatment as well as a local support group. A couple of good places to start is with your family doctor and/or the student health services office at your college.

There is nothing to be ashamed of. You have an illness that needs to be treated. It is no different than if you were to have a infection, a really bad cold that won't go away, or whatever. The only thing to possibly be ashamed of is hiding it and not seeking help.

It won't be easy, but it is doable and you CAN beat this.
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   Posted 8/28/2011 3:59 AM (GMT -6)   
pls seek support, as stated. we are here for you. with healing compassion, jamie


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   Posted 8/28/2011 7:58 AM (GMT -6)   
If you are 5'8", 150 isn't bad. But I know you probably think you are fat. I am 5'8" too. I wont share my wieght, because I know I have to lose more. I have lost 30 pounds by drinking lemon water and walking. But you need to eat and eat properly. It sounds like you have a food adiction maybe. I would talk to somebody about it. There are ways to look at food, and you have to learn to look at it properly. And you need to changet the way you eat. We need fuel in the morning, but not so much in the end of the day. A nutritionest would help you. Do get help. I think you have a bad self image and that can be changed.

Take care, keep posting. We are here to help you.

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   Posted 8/28/2011 6:40 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi, Your post struck a note with me.I am very familiar with anorexia/bulimia. My son's fiance had it for at least 15 years and he coudn't put up with it and they broke up. But that is not the reason I am writing you. My sister too had anorexia and bulimia. She was hospitalized many times, and had very good treatment from her therapists. But it just didn't work. She went from not eating to gorging herself. Then one day she decided she didn't want to eat anymore. All she would consume was some milk. At age 52 she died of a massive heart attack. Even with the help she had she could nor overcome this terrible disease. I am hoping you will find the help you need and get into a treatment program. This is not something you can solve by yourself. I know you love dancing but if your health is suffering it is not worth it.
Please get the help you need to become a healthy person. Your life is worth it.
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