I have been struggling with anorexia/bulimia for at least 5 years now. Right now I am in my first year in college, and I am a pre-professional ballet and modern dancer. I love dance with all my heart and it is my passion and I could not imagine life without it, but its large focus on the body is driving my eating disorder to the extreme. I cannot even eat a small snack without going on a complete binge, for sometimes the rest of the day. I am so depressed that this has caused me to gain weight, yet I am too powerless to stop it in its tracks and resume a healthy lifestyle. At 5'8" I just want to be a healthy 130 pounds (even though I used to be 115), but now I am 150 pounds. I cannot stop this cycle of abuse and I want to return to my old self and love my body and be thankful for what I have, but this addiction is taking over my life and my happiness during a once in a life time experience: the college life. Please help me....anyone. How do I stop the cycle, drop to a healthy weight, and love myself again?? This is so out of hand. Help.