Keira, I wanted to let you know there is a anxiety panic disorder forum, that may be of help to you, since you said you suffer from this. However I have to agree with Karen and Jim on a few points, and especially that counseling might be beneficial to the both of you.
While both you, and you're spouse are welcome here, I would like to remind you both that the forum rules need to be followed, and I suggest that you both take a peek at them before further posting.
Also this is a Depression forum and the members will be more than happy to support if indeed you suffer from this. What this forum is not, is a marriage counseling format to air couples marital disagreements.
Again, I hope you both will consider counseling for the sake of the marriage.
I wish you both well.
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