Hi Jackie, thank you for your concern. My boyfriend couldn't be more supportive of me. He's sad that I feel this way and am having a hard time moving forward but is by my side no matter what. I'm trying to let go of the past but it's hard, I've only know a certain way of life for so long, it's hard to change. I think that is part of my problem, all this happened so quick (the divorce, house fire, etc.) and then to move out of state where I have no friends or family. As far as the material things goes, I know it can be replaced. I'm not a "stuff" person to begin with, that doesn't define who I am. I'm more mad that the soon to be ex took everything away from me and didn't give me a choice to leave anything behind. He tried and is still trying to be as hurtful as he can. At this moment I'm feeling a bit better thinking I may have lost my car, house and the rest of my "stuff" but he lost me.
I'm in contact with counselors and other people who I think will be able to help me move forward.
Karen, thank you so much for the encouraging words! I'm feeling stronger already