I am truly sorry this has been so difficult as of late. I can imagine it has been very difficult for you lately, pls don't feel bad for stating that. You are only human. We all know how hard you 'work' here. You may not get paid for this work, but it's very much appreciated by everyone here. I always admire your strength and kindness in helping others, whether they are newbies or longtimers.
I believe you are the heart and soul of this group. I've said before, the nice thing about coming here is that ppl are all so willing to jump in and share their advice, good wishes and concern for others. This is a very safe place to come and feel accepted.
I don't understand why someone would bother to come on just to cause problems, don't get it.
You're a good lady, take care of you. Don't let this stuff get you down.
To better days ahead for all of us!!
God bless. Alice.