Welcome to the depression forum. I noticed one sentence that struck me. You said: "I want her to be happy on one side, but I want to destroy what she has just so I can feel better on the other." How does destroying what she has make you feel better? I have honestly never understood people who are like that. Or why. How can a person get pleasure out of another person's pain? And to be manipulative. I don't understand why people have to manipulate situations for their own gain. In fact I stay far away from people like that to be completely honest. Have you been diagnosed as a sociopath? Or is that a self diagnosis?
I don't blame your wife for wanting out of this marriage. Especially if you are admittingly cheating on her. It realy hurts bad when you find out your man is cheating. It is tragic to a woman. You feel degraded, unloved and disrespected. All at once. And it does break the womans heart. But then she gets angry, so watch out.
I guess with your wife leaving you will have plenty of time to spend with all of your kids. Don't ever hurt them, your wife is an adult. Children don't understand. They are innocent in this situation. In fact if you start putting your children (family) first instead of your own needs, you will be truly a much happier man.
Have you thought about
talking to a counselor or another professional about
your problems. I am going to let you own them as you have caused them. I think professional help would be a good resource at this point. Maybe you can learn to change the way that you think aobut things. Maybe if there is another woman in your life in the future, you wont do this to her.
I don't mean to make you sound like a bad guy, but you got to admit, you kind of are. I hope that you can rectify this situation, but by the sound of it, your wife must be pretty fed up at this point.
We do learn from our mistakes. I hope that you are learning now. We make them. We own them. And we learn from them. Hopefully you are young enough to start over again with somebody that you love again. And play fair this time.
I hope that your wife never sees yoour post, as you said that you had urgers that always seek something "better" including escorts. It makes it sound like your wife isnt' good enough. I don't think you meant it that way. But it sounds kind of crude if you ask me. But maybe you did mean it. I don't know.
I dont mean to tell you you are a bad guy. But by the sounds of it. If I had a husband like the way you treat your wife, I would have left long ago. I imagine she is very hurt right now. And you are probably feeling bad about
it. I am sorry I don't have much advice. But I think if in the future you want a relationship with another woman, you need to get some professional help to make it a true relationship. Give and take on both ends and meeting in the middle. And a friendship along with that too.
I hope that things work out for you. I hope that you two can get along until the end of your lease. I am sorry that she already has a boyfriend. I know it sounds quick, but while you were out with so and so. She developed a relationship with somebody else. I guess you can't get too angry about
that after what you have put her through. I know that you want her back. But that doesn't sound like it is going to happen. I hope that things do work out for you. I hope that you get some professional guidance so that you can live a normal life. Without trying to manipulate others. Just live. Live and let live is the answer.
Keep posting, but don't be surprised if you don't get some people who are going to call it for what it is.
PS I feel like this is the harshest post that I have ever made, but I had to be honest. I don't think you would have wanted it anyother way.
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