Hello Healingwell members,
I'm totally new here and don't quite know the ropes yet. Not sure if I should jump straight to my problem or introduce myself to an... anonymous world.
I guess a little about me, I was married for 4 years divorced in 2008, several months after the divorce was finalized (4 months to be exact) my mother passed away. I am a father of 2 girls. I don't really have friends I can talk to, except for one. That one has been there a lot for me during those years since 2008 but has recently reduced her "being there for me".
For years I've always been there for other people. Offering my support lending my ear , just over all being there for people NO MATTER What. There are times when I will totally set aside my issues and help others so they won't suffer anymore than what they do. Yet...when I get to my limits with my own issues, I feel no one is there for me. I tend to feel empty, alone, cut off from people even when i express my need for help.
My mother had been diagnosed with Breast Cancer 4 years before her death and within that time also diagnosed with depression. I too think that I am, Standard symptoms for it show that I would. I've not really gone to a doctor because well...i'm afraid of them. Always have been due to other issues.
I guess my question is...am I wrong for feeling anger and resent me when no one is there to help me? If I need to elaborate on how I help others let me know.