hurting

i have felt so , and done so. i hurt my self by playing internet games for insane amount of time, without knowing it's destructive behavior, thought about ending mylife. i did that because i felt many things in my life aren't going the way i want them to.

I don't have those desires anymore, i want to live a normal life. i'v learned to be content to some of the shortcommings in my life because i'v looked around and saw that there is a lot of positive things in me and in my life that i didn't see clearly before. obvuisly i had to use help to get to this stage, i saw a number of doctors and had tried a number of medications till i found one which seemed to work for me.

One has to accept some life short commings, specially the things you can't do anything about. if there is something you can do to change your life then do it , if not then you have to accept them in your life, because some things will just not go the way you want them, in this acceptance you learn patience with life and a feeling of content and peace.

Mom, have you or are you getting help through counseling? I know that I would never have been able to face the difficult challenge of life without getting help professionally.

hey mom. i have a friend that cut for a few years. she is a good person to talk to. if you would like to email her just let me know and i will give you her email address. i am sure she wouldn't mind talking to you.