hurting

does anyone else feel like hurting themselves because nothings going right or there is some much anger inside u......

i have felt so , and done so. i hurt my self by playing internet games for insane amount of time, without knowing it's destructive behavior, thought about ending mylife. i did that because i felt many things in my life aren't going the way i want them to.

I don't have those desires anymore, i want to live a normal life. i'v learned to be content to some of the shortcommings in my life because i'v looked around and saw that there is a lot of positive things in me and in my life that i didn't see clearly before. obvuisly i had to use help to get to this stage, i saw a number of doctors and had tried a number of medications till i found one which seemed to work for me.

One has to accept some life short commings, specially the things you can't do anything about. if there is something you can do to change your life then do it , if not then you have to accept them in your life, because some things will just not go the way you want them, in this acceptance you learn patience with life and a feeling of content and peace.

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                                                     To be or not to Be

Mom, have you or are you getting help through counseling? I know that I would never have been able to face the difficult challenge of life without getting help professionally.

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We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.

my doctor, or his secretary, cant get me in until the 29th of april, my phsych tends to make jokes about everything and doesnt know what to put me on, and right now i would rather stay in bed than see my councelor, or anyone for that matter. I am not looking forward to starting the whole "new pill" process again, if u know what i mean. I just feel stuck right now, hopeless, lonely and overwhelmed with life......I wanna be normal, whatever that is.

hey mom. i have a friend that cut for a few years. she is a good person to talk to. if you would like to email her just let me know and i will give you her email address. i am sure she wouldn't mind talking to you.