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stillme
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   Posted 9/14/2011 10:07 PM (GMT -6)   
My appointment is tomorrow yeah For some reason though, I am having a hard time holding it together tonight. I've been crying and can't stop all these thoughts in my head. Can't sleep. Why is this happening to me? I feel so weak. Why can't I just move on? My ex sleeps at night, goes out and is living life and I am stuck. This just saddens me even more. In such a bad place right now. I tried so hard to hold it back. I don't even feel like I can make it until tomorrow.

livenlaugh
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   Posted 9/14/2011 11:26 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi~
Night time seems to be the time when things seem the darkest. Try to take a hot shower, listen to some calm music or try to distract yourself. Also try to write things down. Sometimes it is good to let it out.
Stay strong!
Lisa

stillme
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   Posted 9/15/2011 11:58 AM (GMT -6)   
I'm here waiting for my appointment. Feeling very nervous and ready to cry.

Jim1969
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   Posted 9/15/2011 1:34 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey you managed to hold it together and make it through the night regardless of how rough it got. Count that as a victory.
2 confirmed herniated lumbar discs. Spinal Arthritis. Spinal Stenosis, diabetic peripheral nueropathy.

evangelina88
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   Posted 9/15/2011 2:08 PM (GMT -6)   
Let us know how your appointment goes. Been thinking about you and keeping you in prayer. You're doing great! It's ok to feel sad. I feel sad, too...but you are making it! We are making it.

angie

stillme
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   Posted 9/15/2011 6:14 PM (GMT -6)   
appointment went well. She prescribed lexapro. Insurance wouldn't pay so she changed to celexa. She was easy to talk to but she doesn't do the psychotherapy, which she also suggested. The person at that office is always booked so she is going to check another colleague at a different office. She thinks we would be a good fit. Pray that the other doctor does therapy. Celexa had a qt prolongation warning, which I read does something to the heart. I'm a little nervous. I posted for any recommendations. Thanks for your support.

theHTreturns...
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   Posted 9/16/2011 1:04 AM (GMT -6)   
wishing you well and all the very best my friend. sending you many healing compassionate vibes your way. jamie
EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER,

RAPID CYCLING BI-POLAR DISORDER

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

stillme
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   Posted 9/22/2011 4:38 PM (GMT -6)   
So, I've been taking the generic form of celexa for about 7 days. I'm feeling much better. No real side effects to speak of. I'm able to sleep at night but still wake up relatively early. But its progress, because I was waking up EVERY hour after I would drift off, which would be around 1am. Sometimes I would just watch the time on the clock go by. I get up at 5 so I didn't get much sleep. Anyway, I was tearful Monday and Tueday and a few of those negative thoughts rolled in. Of course my mind started saying that the medicine wasn't going to help me, I was just going to feel this way forever. I pushed past because I know the medicine can take up to a month to fully begin working.
Yesterday and today have been good days. No crying. Not dwelling on the pain or the person. I go back to the dr next Thursday. I'm praying this continues. I have noticed when I wake up in the morning my heart is beating fast. Perhaps a little anxiety. The yo-yo effect of this thing scares me. Up one minute then bam, back to start.

Progress is progress I'm thankful for every good second. Hoping it lasts.

It's Genetic
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   Posted 9/22/2011 5:19 PM (GMT -6)   
Every day will be a step forward for you, Stillme, we hope. It does get better when you're taking professional treatment and talking to your
psychiatrist, too, in most cases. Someone wrote earlier today on another forum about being pro-active in learning about the illness; I think that was a good idea: to learn as much as you can about how to control depression and what's best to do for it.
 
Keep us posted, please.

Take care.

I.G.
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