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Date Joined Aug 2011
Total Posts : 11
   Posted 9/17/2011 7:43 PM (GMT -6)   
I'd say good news but nothing is set in stone. So I'll say better.

After the cancelling of my first real counseling appointment a few long drawn out talks happened. I'd call them arguments but no real words came from me. I was distraught to do anything but stare and cry. Alot of the things my boyfriend said may have been the truth if not somewhat over exaggerated as well as hurtful towards someone in my mental state but at least he realized that even having said what he did that I have to get to my other appointments. No ifs and or buts about it. I've fallen completely off the deep-end twice now. Once while recovering from the last fall and I blamed him and my mother.

He's really motivated in helping me even if it drives him nuts. I don't want that to happen but I really can't seem to handle it myself not while I'm fighting so many things especially the problems with my pregnancy. Right now I should have a way to make it to my two appointments although I really wish I could talk to someone now but that's a luxury I don't have anymore. I'm just trying to keep myself together.. Keep my mind busy cause if not I'll fall apart which would mean I'd not move to do anything for myself not even the basic stuff like eating. I really don't want to go back to that. I did that for 6 months in 2010 and I almost died from sickness and neglect to my own body. I like being able to get up and walk plus care for myself and my daughter. I don't want my depression to turn into a disability ever again especially not while I'm carrying this child of mine.

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Date Joined Aug 2006
Total Posts : 9664
   Posted 9/18/2011 12:13 PM (GMT -6)   
Please do eat, as it'll harm your baby if you don't. You've been through a lot,
Hopefully, you'll gain in time the ability to forgive your boyfriend, it seems hard
for now, but with time lets hope things will get better. It's so good your going
to go to counseling that is a hard step to take, but it'll make you feel better about
yourself, so go and get the help, it's a good thing to want a better life for yourself and counseling
with help with that.
Many many well wishes to you and keep us posted on how things are going...
we do care.
* So many dx's I could write a book* "It would be nice if we could use the edit button in real life"...

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Date Joined Mar 2009
Total Posts : 20279
   Posted Yesterday 6:29 AM (GMT -6)   
sending much healing compassion to you. jamie


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