Hi my name is Drew and I am 17 years old. I have been dealing with a mental illness for about
3 years and it's been to it's point where it has been top and it's been so hard to go through... I have been living in my house for about
17 years and I finally moved out I got tired of my parents constantly abusing me... They would yell and scream at me every freaking day and 2 or 3 times a week they would physically abuse me or emotionally abuse me when they are pissed off at someone or nothing at all... Also In April I was going out with a guy that I thought cared about
me but instead physically and emotionally abused me and had sexually assaulted me... I'm scarred at the both of them because I live in the same town as them and they are really close to were I live and one of them goes to my school and I don't want to go to another school because that is not fair to me because of the idiot that did that too me. I've been to my lowest points every in the last few months I've been in the mental hospital off and on for about
5 months and I'm at another program that I am in there for 4 months and I hate it... I'be been down in the dumps for the most of the months and I have been doing harmful things to myself that are really risky to my life and I'm scared I might do something that I regret. But i get very emotional in some of the situations that i am in like having a flashback about
it and having to talk about
it to my social worker I get so emotional that I do something harmful to my body... I'm a complete mess and I don't know what to do?? I did move out of my house and now living with my aunt but it feels like my fault for the reason why they were abusing me and why he sexually assaulted me.....