depression and not knowing what to do.

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   Posted 9/25/2011 3:37 PM (GMT -6)   
im new here, and i really dont know what to do. , no one beleives anything i say anyway, everyone hides stuff from me, like mums gone on holiday and left me and my younger brother at home, im 23 and hes 21. hes treating me like im little and im a theif, locking the food money away that mum left, saying that its to make sure its not used for anything else. f
im not trusted in the house, and never will, im always treated differently from my brother. i also got bullied and beaten up at school, which hasnt helped but half of the reason why that happened was because of me andit being my fault. my dad died when i was 9 and ive never really got over that, but everyone else has seemed to have moved on but im finding it really hard to accept mums new boyfriend even more so now ive split from my partner.
im adopted but feel left out all the time, like im not wanted and have no one to talk to.. i knoiw i am, but i know that my brother is golden boy, and im looked down at all the time. i feel so low, all the time, have no energy, and i too dont have many friends, and suck at life right now, everything i touch seams to fall apart,im such a negative person too, i dont have much faith in my self and im really not that confident. i hate the way i am, the way i look and im truley fed up..  its not like me, at all, i just dont know what to do. i just feel so angry, ugly, useless, and not wanted, and just empty inside.

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 9/25/2011 5:12:05 PM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 9/25/2011 5:18 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Funkymonkey2306,

Since you are 23, I am wondering if you are working or going to school... You are at that age where you could be getting out on your own. That is why I wondered if you have a job. I am thinking that it is time for you to have a life of your own, and not depending on your mother and then you wouldn't have to deal with this.

Why aren't you trusted in the house or with money? Do you have any money of your own?

Being negative gets you nowhere fast in life. But it is up to you to change the way that you view things and have a better outlook. Life can really be good. I hope that you find that out. You could be living your own life and having fun.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 9/25/2011 6:38 PM (GMT -6)   
Babygirl- you are 23??!! Save up money, find a roomate and move out. Those people are poison...I felt nauseous reading, You are still young enough for Job COrps, a great program, sturdents work, get ged, boarding ang foof is free and you gat $5000 towaeds after 1 or 2 yrs. There are escapes and you need to pick on really soon Take care


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   Posted 9/25/2011 9:36 PM (GMT -6)   
HI Funkymonkey ,Welcome to HW,I am sure you will find alot of support here! Next are you on medication for depression ? Also Its best to let your past go and not dwell on it ,like move on! What defines you in life is yourself !You make yourself the person you are.Life is what you make it ,so make a plan for yourself and follow it thur.Don't allow others to treat you badly ever! I know when you live under someone elses roof ,you must follow there rules ,but you can move out!Try to ignore the negative way your being treated ,realize you deserve better and will find it.Make a plan to move out ,don't let them know yet ! realize you don't need them and can make it on your own.belive in yourself and only allow people in your life that treat you good! Please take care and keep posting take care from Michele

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   Posted 9/26/2011 2:59 AM (GMT -6)   
we are here for you. definately have a chat with your doctor. you have have been given excellent advice and wisdom by the gang. me, sending you much healing compassionate thoughts to you. keep strong and keep posting. jamie



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   Posted 9/26/2011 7:49 AM (GMT -6)   
I've often thought about seing aa doctor but I'm embarassed, I don't know why. I've been like this for years and having these thoughts, I don't know why I do either. I wish I didn't.. I kept telling myself I wasn't depressed, and I'm not depressed.. So no I'm not on any medication, not sure if I need to be? Does it help? Am I really depressed, or am I just been too negative.
I moved away to uni in 2007, and suffered from homesickness their.. But that got better when I met my partner, we moved intogether but have recently split.. Now back at home after finishing uni, I'm finding it hard to readjust, and fit in. My mum and bro seem to have liked it bettter without me their, and I just feel like I'm in the way and not wanted.
My brother gets away with alsorts, and he gets what he wants, when I ask for something, it always starts an argument, they say I'm ungrateful, and selfish..

I'm just getting realy agitated, and upset all the time, no energy to even do things.
I have a part time job and love it, so I'm meeting new people and I go out sometimes..
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