I don't know what to do. I just started a new job. I feel like I should be happy. It's the exact opposite. After doing nothing for nine months, I realized that my muscles have probably atrophied and my fatigue is not only mental, but physical. I also ran out of ADHD meds which is so not helping. There are times during the day when I feel like I'm having a panic attack. I want to cry, I want to die, I want to quit. I want to curl up in a hole and die again. Three times today I went to the ladies, and actually - this is going to sound so weird - laid down on the floor (and hoped no one walked in). My back just hurts so bad, I don't know what to do. I answer the phone, but it hardly ever rings so most of the time I just sit there. In pain. I bite my cheek or my tongue or hold my breath just so I can feel like I have control over something. Even though I'm not, I feel painfully tired and bored. *****ing HELP ! I need help ! I can't make it through another day.