I am very new to this website. I feel as if this will help me.
Im just going to get to the point. I feel depressed. Im never happy anymore. Itll be on and off where Ill feel happy one day then the next day I'll be back right where i started. I always ask the question, "why me?" I feel as if everything goes wrong for me. I am a freshman at college and I am already not doing too well. My decision to come to college may not have been the best one concidering I didnt do too well in High School. I have a family that loves me. I have no problems with my family. If i were to tell someone i feel depressed they probably wouldnt believe me. Theres no other way to put it. Im just not happy and its killing me...litterally. If one little thing goes wrong I lose it and get so angry and sad and I get suicidle. I even have this wonderful girlfriend that loves me to death. She has been there for me this whole time no matter how mad I get. She is the only one who knows about my thoughs and feelings. I dont believe i have anger problems. I get angry because of frustration. I get very frustrated with everything because i feel as if I'm doing everything wrong or everything bad happens to me. I know i have something wrong with me and all I've been doing is ignoring it for about 8 months. I dont want to tell my parents because i dont feel comfortable. I even try "acting" happy. I dont know what to do. I know it might not seem like im depressed but I know I am. I know im sad everyday. I know how I feel. I hope someone out there can help me. All i want is to be happy.