seems like nobody gets it, doesn't it? They don't want to take the time to understand. I was raised that depression was a matter of willpower...it was a character flaw, not an illness. I know better now but we still are mad at ourselves 'cause we are not getting better.
I know you said you had been thru all the meds pretty much, but new ones all the time. I just abilify ADDED to welbutrin and seroquel and seemed to be working until seroquel ran out aarrgghh!
Call your doc's office and get the name of the shrink-alot of times, we fall thru the cracks (and fall and fall-lol) call office yourself
You are never too fa gone and yes, they are days I wish my head would explode, then I could clean it out and put in some nice clean pretty thoughts... hang in there call yr doc's and we are here to listen anytime, ok?