Hi BlueMoon 878, and welcome to the Depression Forum,
Here are some ideas which you might think about for helping yourself:
1. Realize that you have "too many eggs in one basket": that is, you're putting too much of your life into the love for this one boy who cares for you. You might wish to cool it just a little with him to give yourself more independence and more opportunity to meet new people as friends, as well.
2. Make an appointment with a psychiatrist to go in and talk to him about your depression and ask for the proper medications for you to take while you are trying to get the chemical balance restored properly. (That's very
important for your improvement in feeling tone.)
3. Take a hot shower and put on clean, pressed clothes and go to the nearest bookstore and purchase a book on Self-esteem. Your level of self-esteem is low right now probably because of the depression. Buy also a
manual on cognitive behavioral therapy, which will help you to challenge the negative thinking of depression and substitute positive thinking and acting. It will be easier to do, however, after you go on medication to relieve the chemical imbalance.
4. Preview and buy a paperback on manners. Your sister's rebuff of your effort to invite your boyfriend was perfectly within her right. The invitation was to you, not to him. That means you might go if you wish, but don't go if you wish to take a guest--no other person except you was invited on your invitation. That is something that should not depress you; it should make you feel honored that you are considered important enough to be at the occasion.
4. Consider avoiding alcohol or coffee or anything else that has caffeine in it, because those two make depression worse. Don't use the diet sodas because the artificial sweeteners are not good for your emotional status right now, and they may be loaded with caffeine. Chocolate has a similar effect as caffeine; so does tea.
5. Do some soul-searching about what you want in your life: my guess is that the answer is going to be happiness, and that's something that can come to you when the things in your life are in balance. That means
enough love, comfort, money, healthy friends, family, and self-interest to care for how well you are treated and how you treat yourself. You must treat yourself as important and worthy of good care. The little child within you (and each of us has one) will be very appreciative of what you're doing to help keep her content and secure, and it's all going to come from your effort to help her know that all is well for your adult in you.
5. Keep in touch here and let us know what we can do to help you.
There are answers to this, and you deserve to have a content and happy life.
Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 10/20/2011 4:18:12 PM (GMT-6)